Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Being Significant

I struggle every damn day trying not to value myself by the size of my paycheck. The Mommy Wars are real and not just between the moms, but a strong, daily, intense internal battle for this particular mom.  Currently, I'm choosing to work on projects that do not pay in money. But that can be hard when much of the world (and yourself) equates value to financial value. I DO believe power and success is creating opportunities to have a choice...regardless of which way you choose. And yes, there is also a level of fortune, but fortune favors the prepared, no?

There are many nights I toss and turn, sleepless, wondering if I'm making the right decisions for my life right now...am I doing the right thing for me, for my kids, for my family, for my part in this crazy world?

And sometimes...if you listen...sometimes the world answers you back.

At our cast party for Riverplace Student Theater's production of Aladdin this week, I got an answer.

Unbeknownst to me and my partner in crime, Creative Director, Kristina Rehling, some of the parents and kids got together to prepare something special for us at the cast party.  Even Devon was in on it, and some how, he managed to keep the secret.

Jill Sheppard, a parent of a young girl who has been a part of the theater program from Kindergarten to a graduating 5th grader began by speaking to us. She thanked us for our years of service, for sharing our gifts with the children....but the thing she mentioned that stuck with me the most was "not only are you successful but SIGNIFICANT. Because our kids knew you, they have been changed for good. Thank you."

And then this happened:



Lyrics from "For Good" from Wicked:

I've heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn
And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you…
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good

It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part
So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend…
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you
Because I knew you I have been changed for good 

And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore...

Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

Who can say if I've been Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been Changed for the better
And because I knew you… Because I knew you…
Because I knew you...I have been changed for good…

Thank you to all the parents and kids of the theater program as well as my friends and family who support me in this crazy endeavor. This has definitely been a valuable and rewarding life experience.